It’s been about a week since I’ve last posted and it feels like a lifetime. At work, we are going full force with our annual Silent Auction and guess who is running “lead”. That’s right, yours truly. We’re about a month behind, which is totally not my fault. I usually pick up the project when donations start to come in and they’re not rolling in like they usually do. It’s driving me nuts because I have a female Gordon Ramsey for a boss. Actually, she really reminds me of Abby from Dance Moms. Yes. It’s that bad. She’s been OK so far. I’m just waiting for the blowout. I get stressed thinking about the day of the auction, which is coming up fast and furious. I’m taking it as it comes and hopefully it comes with a Valium.
This month marks my 10 year anniversary here, at this job. It’s odd to find a 16 year old with that kind of work ethic, but here I am. I kid, I kid. I’m 18. In my dreams. Anyway, I really don’t know how to feel. I NEVER expected to be here that long. I never WANTED to be here that long but things happen, I guess. I really don’t want to get into it on here because I’m trying to keep my job negativity out of my little corner of the internet, but I just don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t quit, I don’t want to stay. I’ve been proactive about looking for a different job and I’ve been lackadaisical (hello, $10 word.). I’ve sent resumes and gotten no responses. I’ve gone to the career center at my alma mater (that sounds fancy!), I’ve even applied for jobs at the school and they didn’t even give me the courtesy of an interview. I’ve applied for jobs in other departments in my current place of employment and have gotten interviews and then, without fail the inevitable “it’s not you, it’s us” letter. Personally, I think my boss has put the kabosh on all of them in some way, shape or form. So to say I’m at my wits end is a big understatement. I’ve thought about going back to school but 1) I’m scared that I’ll finish and still not be able to find anything and 2) I have no idea what to go back for; the possibilities are endless and I’m afraid of making the wrong decision.
Woof. that went in an unintended direction. Moving on to happier things.
I accidentally came across spoilers for the Mindy Project. It really was an accident. I was looking for gifs of the last episode on Tumblr and they popped up and I couldn’t. look. away. Anyway, if they’re true and they really happen, I’m kind of torn. I sort of like what I read but part of me feels like they’re trying to tie up some story lines in case they don’t come back for a fourth season (i’m biting my tongue) or they already know they won’t be back (the horror!). The most recent episode was good but I think Mindy needs to be back in New York. California just doesn’t feel right.
Just for the show though. Personally, I am dying to visit California. Who wants to help a poor sister out?
I’ve had the new Bruno Mars/ Mark Ronson song stuck in my head for about 3 days now. I just love Bruno Mars. He’s talented, funny, and compact. I would love to stick him in my pocket and take him everywhere with me so when I need a quick pick me up dance party I’ll be prepared.
This is the point where I’ve realized that there is nothing else going on in my life to write about and since my internet connection is being extremely spotty, I’m going to end this with a few questions for you guys! Feel free to leave your answers/advice in the comments!
- I find that I’m having trouble thinking up titles for my posts and I’ve noticed that I’m not getting as many views as I would like. I try to tag my posts accordingly and I share on my Facebook and I have a Bloglovin’ page. Any suggestions are appreciated!
- On a related note, I’m feeling a little uninspired lately. Is there anything you would want to see here? I think my problem is that I don’t think I’ve found a niche yet. I don’t know if it’s my writing style (which I happen to like since I write the way I speak – minus my Brooklyn accent.), my love of everything and nothing, my uncanny ability to write about the same topics in almost every post (Believe me, it’s not 100% intentional). I just don’t know. I feel all over the place.
- I’ve been watching that show I mentioned a few posts ago, Big Women: Big Love. I’ll probably be writing about how I feel about it soon. (No question, just letting ya know.)
I’ll stop rambling now.